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Spiraling Downward from Anger and Resentment into Sadness and Hopelessness

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Do I Want To Save My Marriage
There are common themes among couples whose close connection has fizzled. They include constant bickering, living more like roommates than lovers, lack of time, replacing time spent together with energy focused on children, breakdowns in communication, or simply no longer knowing what to say to one another. These issues lead to feelings of anger and resentment; and that’s what’s going on with a client, Maxwell, and his wife, Sarah.
Anger and Resentment
Max has been struggling to find ways to reignite the connection with his wife. He’s more of a doer than a talker, so he decides one Saturday several weeks ago to pitch in with cleaning up the lunch dishes.
He thinks to himself: “I haven’t got anything special to do, might as well help Sarah clean up. She’ll appreciate it. Maybe that will soften things up with us a bit.”
He says to Sarah, “I’ll load the dishwasher. You sit and finish your tea.”
Sarah is thinking to herself, “Oh great, here we go, cups on the bottom shelf, plates in without scraping, I’m just going to have to rearrange it all. He thinks he’s doing me a favor. He’s just making more work for me. Why is this all my responsibility anyway?”
She says to Max, ” Right, I’ll put away the food while I finish the tea, but I don’t have time just to sit. Remember to scrape the plates before you put them in the dishwasher. There isn’t a garbage disposal in there.”
Meanwhile, Logan, their toddler, waddles across the room, sippy-cup turned upside down, dripping milk on the kitchen floor. Max, clearing the table, slips in the spill and drops the soup bowls, breaking one and chipping the other. They were pretty new ones Sarah just bought on sale at Anthropology.
She gave him one of those if-looks-could-kill glares and snaps at him: “What is wrong with you, can’t you do just one simple task?”
Max takes a deep breath and says nothing, thinking to himself: “Don’t react. Don’t get angry. Don’t fight back. Let it go. Just clean it up, move forward.”
Sarah, noticing that he has shut down and wasn’t going to fight back, retreats into her private thoughts: “Will we ever have a real conversation again? I wish he appreciated all that I do with working, cooking and cleaning and taking care of Logan. He’s never acknowledged me for all that.”
The anger defused, the feeling of resentment lasted for the remainder of the weekend and on Monday, the couple returned to their weekday routine of get-the-kid-to-childcare, go to work, come home, eat dinner, do some chores, and go to sleep.
Sadness
A few days later, a colleague told Max he looked sad. He was. We talked about it in therapy, and he distinguished that the sadness came from his wife’s reaction to his slipping in the kitchen. “She didn’t ask if I was okay. She wasn’t concerned about whether or not I was hurt. It’s like she doesn’t care about me anymore.”
So, their relationship moved from anger and persistent bickering to resentment, then into a sense of deep sadness due to a lack of caring, and no clear way for either of them to access what is really going on the with other. They are stuck in being concerned about getting things handled, like chores and kid stuff, the result of the task at hand, and who has or hasn’t done whatever. They’ve neglected each other’s feelings. They no longer connect in an empathetic way.
Hopelessness
Max sinks deeper, into a state of hopelessness. He worries that the relationship is doomed. He sobs: “I want more than anything to turn this relationship around, but I just don’t have the communication skills to express that to Sarah in a way that she won’t become defensive. I want us to stop this downward spiral thing and move the relationship forward. How can I do that if I can’t talk to her and I can’t find the right moment to approach her? I’m such a loser.”
Working it out
“Wait a minute Max; that’s why you’re in therapy.” I give him an assignment. “Write a letter explaining what you are feeling, the profound sadness inside and how you picture your relationship transforming. Tell her what you think you could do to rebuild it.”
Max’s reached for his phone and said “I’ll send her a text, no, maybe an email. You can say more in an email.”
I stopped him: “No, not a text, not an email, a letter, an old-fashion personal letter, written by you to your wife.”

Think about it. It’s not an easy task, and it takes time. I asked Max to reflect about what he would say to her and what he, not some TV show or movie version of happy-ever-after, but his version of what the relationship could be. The point of the letter is to start the conversation that breaks the cycle of hopelessness. To dispel the feeling that he can’t make any changes and to practice expressing one’s self. It’s an invitation to Sarah to be back in real communication. It’s the first step towards healing and making the relationship healthy again.

I wonder how many readers of this blog have written a letter like this. What did you say to your spouse? After reading about Maxwell’s situation, do you plan on writing one? If so, what will you say? I invite you to run your ideas past me, or share your experience. Please leave a comment below. I will get back to you.

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Rebuilding Intimacy by Reducing Overwhelm

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Maintaining intimacy in your marriage can prove difficult when life gets busy. I see a lot of couples in therapy who are overwhelmed by the sheer number of tasks they must deal with every day. Overwhelm can be the result of major life events, such as a new baby, or it can be caused by on-going tasks, such as running a business or caring for aging parents. Whatever provokes this state of exhaustion, the results are generally the same: energy that was previously focused on the primary relationship now turns outward, becoming more depleted as the number of activities and demands for time increase. The previously strong, intimate, connections begin to weaken.

When a couple comes to me with this problem, we typically concentrate on rebuilding intimacy. Recently I worked with a couple who had a six month old baby. Their biggest obstacle was time. They employed a full-time babysitter, but between their careers, evenings spent caring for the child, and prepping for the following day, they had absolutely no energy left for each other. By the time the weekends rolled around, they were exhausted. Caring for a newborn is a 24/7 job, and neither were prepared to cope with those demands.

Prioritizing Intimacy

It might seem absurd, but intentionally carving out time to be together is the first step toward regaining intimacy. For the new parents, I instructed them to calendar a date night. Their assignment was to go out for dinner or coffee, and just sit, talk, and reconnect. They were willing, but it never happened. By the time they got through the day they were mentally rundown, and there was simply no enthusiasm for adding one more task to their daily list. For this couple, I had to create a lifestyle shift.

Does not Compute

Consider this analogy: You are like a computer. Your brain is the hardware, and your mind contains all the different applications you use during the course of the day. What happens to a computer when you try to load several applications simultaneously? That’s right – the operating system can’t handle the onslaught of commands, and it either stalls or completely shuts down. The human brain acts in a similar way. If you wake up in the morning and begin thinking about all your responsibilities, chances are good that your mind shuts down to the possibility of adding a new task. Your operating system is already full, and no matter how important the task, there simply isn’t room.

But what happens if you only load a specific number of programs instead of opening everything at once? What if there is more space available in your brain? You can begin to focus and execute on the most important tasks, manage the overwhelm, and introduce new activities.

Divide and Conquer

For the new parents, we needed to create more space in their days for them to connect. So we made a list of everything that needed to be accomplished, and we looked at each partner’s skills and interests. From there, we assigned a leader for each task or group of tasks. For example, the wife chose to take the lead on child care, because she is very nurturing and good at organization. Her husband chose to be in charge of household activities, such as paying bills and buying groceries. If either needs help, they can reach out to their spouse for assistance. But with each taking on specific areas of responsibility, it frees the other from having to think about it, and there is no duplication of effort. She doesn’t wake up worrying about how to get the baby to the pediatrician and stop by the store for broccoli, because she knows he’s got the groceries handled. She can close down that application and make time for her husband instead.

Get Quiet

A second technique I introduced for them is mindfulness practices. Mindfulness is the human equivalent of a computer reboot. It is most effective first thing in the morning, but it can also be helpful when you get home from work, before you get involved in household activities. The intention of mindfulness is to be fully present in the moment – you shut out everything you’ve already done or everything you need to do, and you concentrate on your breathing and your body. You become still and allow your body and mind to recharge. There are thousands of guided meditation programs, as short as five minutes and as long as an hour. Guided meditations provide relaxing, empowering, and uplifting instruction, and some include a mantra that you repeat silently to yourself to help maintain focus. Some people find their mindfulness practice easier if they are moving, and yoga can be an effective reboot for them.

Maintaining intimate connections is a very important part of your relationship. If you are beginning to see them slip, try implementing one or more of the techniques outlined above. Make time for one another by calendaring time together, whether you go out for dinner, coffee, or even a walk around the neighborhood. Make sure the majority of that time includes talking about things that are important to you, and not silently staring at a movie screen. Certainly that can be part of it, because it’s important to have fun together, but make sure the focus is on the two of you and your relationship. Outline the major areas of responsibility in your household, and divide the leadership between you. Don’t be afraid to ask for help when you need it, but commit to upholding your obligations so your spouse can let go of those tasks. Finally, take a few minutes each day to reboot your mental computer. Practicing very simple mindfulness exercises will help you reduce overwhelm, and make it possible to connect on a more intimate level with your spouse.

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How to Heal From an Affair

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Without a doubt, an affair is a devastating event in any relationship. It can take a very long time for one or both partners to heal, and it requires work on both sides to make it happen. Many relationships don’t survive this particular trauma, but for purposes of our discussion today, we are going to assume that you have made the decision to remain in the relationship and work toward repairing your marriage.

So how do you move forward in a relationship where the trust has been breached?

Can I Save My Marriage After An Affair
As a therapist, I see specific actions time and again with couples in this situation. The biggest source of friction, and the thing that prevents partners from helping one another heal, is INFORMATION. The person who has been cheated on frequently craves information about the specifics of the affair, while the cheater typically feels shame and guilt, and may not want to hurt their spouse further by revealing the details.

The How and the Why

It’s certainly true that some spouses may not care to know the intimate details of their partner’s affair, and they just want to move forward in some fashion. However, the majority of spouses feel a strong desire to know the how and the why of the situation.

Why did this happen to us?
How did we get in this situation?
Where do we go from here?

Most of all, they usually want to know if it was an emotional affair, or a purely physical attraction. It doesn’t make much sense, but if it was simply physical, the healing process is often swifter. Perhaps it is easier to believe that the flesh is weak, and that the affair was a momentary lapse in judgment.

For the other partner, the real pain of cheating seems to reside within the emotional connection formed between the cheater and their cohort. It is often difficult for the other spouse to accept that their beloved could have a romantic relationship with anyone other than them. Vows have been broken, trust is no longer authentic. For most people, this leads to questioning their own actions (How did I let my spouse down? What could I have done differently?) It may also lead to assumptions about the other person’s motivations (He/she didn’t even care how this would affect me; they’re so selfish!) Oftentimes, knowing some of the details of the illicit relationship helps the other spouse arrive at a new level of understanding. It provides an opportunity for them to reconsider the relationship, perhaps taking seriously complaints they’ve heard from their partner for years. At the very least, it opens the door for new dialogue about the primary relationship.

The Cheater’s Feelings

But what about the cheating spouse? Oftentimes they don’t cheat to hurt their partner – they simply aren’t being fulfilled in the marital relationship, so they seek validation elsewhere. Those actions can be accompanied by intense feelings of guilt and shame. This can lead to “blocking”, meaning that they are unwilling or unable to talk about the incident. They may become irritable or defensive because they don’t want to relive their actions, making it difficult for the other spouse to get the information that will help them jump-start the healing process.

Information Sharing

It is critical at this stage that information be shared, and it is very difficult for a couple to do it by themselves. This is a good time to seek a competent therapist. As a neutral third party, therapists are trained to help couples decipher their emotions and unravel the events that led to the affair. A good therapist will guide the discussion, asking questions that help each spouse understand their part in the relationship. The therapist does not assume the role of judge, but rather more of a facilitator, encouraging each side to acknowledge their actions and understand their partner’s actions as well.

The next step is to begin openly sharing information. Each partner has a specific job to do during this process. The other spouse is responsible for asking questions that will help them understand the reasons for the affair, and they must gather all the information they need in order to mentally process what happened. It is the obligation of the cheater to address the questions as honestly as possible, regardless of the embarrassment or shame caused by the answers. This can be very painful, but it is necessary in order to begin rebuilding trust. Often, when we don’t want to relive a situation, we block the memory, making it harder to recall the information. So this process can sometimes proceed slowly, but if the commitment to the marriage is strong, eventually the desired information will be revealed, and healing can begin.

Frequently the revelation process is also frustrating, because the partner may ask the same question many times, as they struggle to deal with the emotions surrounding the answer. Realize that this is a sincere attempt to come to terms with a devastating breach of trust, and not a personal attack. It is an attempt to heal. Instead of becoming impatient and refusing to answer the question again, the cheater needs to just repeat the information as many times as necessary. Not only will that help the cheating spouse move away from shame and guilt, but it also demonstrates their willingness to be open, and their intention to change the relationship for the better.

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Lack of Leadership is a Significant Marital Issue

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You may not realize this, but leadership is inherent in every good marriage. Leadership is not a quality that comes immediately to mind when people consider key qualities for an intimate relationship; instead, they think of a partnership, where each party is equal. But good partners don’t have equal skills in every situation, so in this chapter, we’re going to examine what leadership looks like in a marriage, what behavior is not leadership, and how you can bring your relationship back into balance by employing specific leadership strategies.

Let’s take a look at three different situations:

Couple A was dining in a restaurant with their one year old child. The child was becoming fussy and beginning to make a mess. Mom was doing her best to soothe the child, to help him settle down and eat his meal. Losing patience with her technique, Dad says to Mom, “Don’t feed him that way! Do this instead!” His words immediately put her on the defensive, she became angry, and the conversation escalated into a heated argument. This type of behavior – Dad becoming impatient and giving Mom unsolicited parenting advice – has been a reoccurring theme in their relationship.

Couple B has difficulties communicating about money. He is a saver – he likes to budget, to be prepared, and to know that there is plenty of cash in the bank. He becomes stressed when finances are running low. His wife, on the other hand, is a spender. She feels a sense of deprivation when she is forced to follow a budget, and she doesn’t want to be involved in managing the family finances. He pleads with her to reign in the spending so they can build a nest egg for the future, but she continually ignores his requests.

Couple C has issues with control. The husband suffers with Obsessive/Compulsive Disorder (OCD). He has a successful career, and earns a good income. But when he comes home, his OCD takes over, and he handles everything from cleaning the house to directing every aspect of the relationship. As a result, his wife doesn’t do anything. The relationship is lopsided, and when conflict arises he accuses her of not actively participating in the relationship and not doing anything for him.

In these three scenarios, the common thread is lack of leadership.

Each parent in Couple A is trying to demonstrate that they know the best way to parent their child. This leads to constant friction and on-going conflicts. They both want to be the leader.

With Couple B, the husband wants to be the leader, but wants participation and validation from his wife. She wants nothing to do with handling the finances, and avoids becoming involved. In this case, there is no clear leadership.

In the third situation, Couple C, the husband dominates the relationship, but becomes upset when he perceives that all the responsibility falls on him. He blames his wife for not helping, but he doesn’t give her the opportunity to do so.

As a result of lack of leadership or a lack of direct leadership (where both partners are in agreement about who will lead), conflict automatically emerges. Even the most compatible partners feel uneasy when clear leadership isn’t defined, because when a crisis situation arises, there is no responsible person, no apparent boundaries. Sometimes the partners will work together to achieve a solution, but frequently they will begin fighting with one another since no one has been designated to lead. Best practices show that in a given situation, the person with the greatest level of expertise usually takes the leadership role in that particular area. This is true not only in familial relationships, but in business, government, and social relationships as well; indeed, it applies to any relationship where cooperation and achieving goals are involved.

Let’s take another look at our couples and their leadership issues.

Couple A is experiencing parenting issues. In this case, the person with the greatest level of expertise is Mom. She spends the most time with the child, and they have a close relationship. It makes sense for her to take the lead on most of the decisions regarding parenting, with Dad in the role of supportive helper. That does not mean that she makes all the parenting decisions, but on a day-to-day basis, she will be the most responsible for raising the child.

The situation with Couple B is a bit more difficult. Both are operating from a place of fear – he fears there will be lack in their future, and desires to avoid that by saving; she fears deprivation today, and “defeats” that by spending money freely. She experiences a lot of fear about money and prefers not to think about it. In this instance, the husband is the clear leader, since he has greater expertise in the financial arena and wants to handle the finances. To attain the best results, however, he needs to work with his wife, help her understand his position, and empower her to help achieve their shared financial goals. They can cooperate and manage their finances in a way that suits both their needs, but he carries the ultimate responsibility.

Our final pair, Couple C, has confused dominance with leadership. The husband controls everything in the relationship. That is not leadership – that is domination. In order to achieve more equality in the marriage, they need to look at all areas of the home, and divide the leadership responsibilities. If she spends more time with the children, she should be the parenting leader. If he is an expert in cleaning the house, he should take the lead. Finances, intimate relationships, social relationships – they need to work together to define responsibility for each area. When they both feel that they are contributing, that makes the relationship meaningful.

How Do I Save My Marriage Alone
Think about your own relationship for a moment. In what area(s) are you experiencing conflict? Is there clear leadership in that area? If not, who has greater expertise? How can you work together to improve the situation?

Please bear in mind that I am not talking about one person abdicating relationship responsibilities. Partners should work together to the extent that they are able to do so. But one person should be responsible for making the big decisions in their designated area, while the other person functions in the support role. Leadership should be split amicably across the different areas of the relationship. Once this has been achieved, both partners will feel as though they are contributing equally, and goals will be achieved. Animosity for one another’s methods will decrease, and each will feel more understood, more valued. When a disagreement occurs, it’s less likely to turn into an all-out war, because the concept of identifying the natural leader will already be in place, providing an easier route to a solution.

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Boundaries: Enmeshed, Rigid or Clear

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Is your family enmeshed and if so, how can you untangle it?

People in enmeshed relationships are defined by the relationship rather than by their individuality. In families that are tightly bound, members often have limited autonomy. Their roles and expectations are set within a family dynamic that dictates what the family does and how they behave and interact. Clear boundaries between family members are few and far between. The boundaries are tangled together yet permeable, like a blockage in a sewer pipe that restricts the flow. They are collapsed and blurred.
Maryanne and Pete are clients of mine. Pete rolls his eyes when Maryanne shares that she talks to her mother at least five times a day by phone or text message. He thinks it’s excessive. Yet, both parents text their children throughout the day. Back and forth messages about school work, activities, issues with friends or teachers, what’s for dinner, whose turn it is to unload the dishwasher, reminders to bring an umbrella or some other inane tidbit consume their days. The family’s boundaries are enmeshed. The expectation that Maryanne and her mother have with each other is the same as what Maryanne and Pete have with their kids. They are all entangled in a consuming web of routine and expectation.
I wanted to see where else boundaries might be restricting the couple’s relationship, so I asked: “How are things between the two of you?” Pete conveyed that they are too busy with the kids, or Maryanne talking to her mom, to have much time together. On the weekends or in the evenings one or the other will be tired, have other responsibilities to handle or other things to do that prevent them from having a night out or spending quality time together. They don’t go anywhere or do anything because other things take priority.
What’s going in here is not uncommon. It’s a boundaries issue. Maryanne and Pete have rigid boundaries around the family dynamic that have pushed them away from each other and keep them apart. That’s what brought them to my office.

The couple is experiencing resentment. They feel sad about not being able to communicate with each other and about not spending time together. It’s not that Pete and Maryanne don’t want to spend time together, it’s that the enmeshed boundaries with Maryanne’s mother and the kids, and the couple’s rigid boundaries around what they do and do not do, has them caught in a trap. They need to find a way to move from the enmeshed and rigid boundaries to more relationship empowering clear boundaries.

How do you move from enmeshed and rigid boundaries to clear boundaries?

Will Counseling Save My Marriage
Clear boundaries create space for people to feel comfortable sharing their thoughts and becoming themselves. Establishing them breaks apart the mesh that keeps individuals from blossoming and sets the stage for getting out of the negative cycle of the trap of enmeshment.
In Pete and Maryanne’s situation, where she is in communication with her mother five or six times a day, their solution was to cut that down to once a day. First, Maryanne told her siblings about her objective to set more healthy boundaries with their mother. Maryanne enrolled her siblings into sharing the responsibility of touching base with their mom during the day. She believes that they all feel better about being involved in supporting their mother.
With the kids, they are allowed to contact their parents only in emergencies during the day. The older two children are responsible for helping the younger one if she needs something during the day. Evenings are designated as family time. There is no contact on social media and cell phones at the dinner table are taboo. The rule of how communication happens is very specific. It’s clear and understood by all rather than flimsy and undefined as in the previous enmeshment.
Regarding Maryanne and Pete’s interaction as a couple, instead of having rigid boundaries between them, they are trying to spend more time together. They’ve created a daily 15 to 20-minute walk-and-talk, a distraction-free stroll around the block where they talk freely about family and personal matters. They are also working on replacing the automatic response to spending time together from “no” to “let’s look at how we can do that.” As a result of shifting these boundary constraints, they are moving toward clearer boundaries in their relationship. I am happy to report that for Maryanne and Pete, things are heading in the right direction.

Are you struggling in your relationship? Might there be enmeshed and or rigid boundaries that are keeping you and your family members from being free to be or become the unique individuals you are? If so, what might you do to define clearer boundaries?
Please let me know what you are doing and how it’s working for you. You can reach me through the comments section. I will personally respond to your comments, concerns and questions.

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